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Sunday, July 1, 2007

hmm, guess my emo mood is coming back agn. LOL. okayy, yest was having this pw meeting online. tt time we are saying, nit to give out surveys so i went to photostat 200 of tt survey which is 100 pieces of paper. so yea, so yest yipi was saeing since there are so many and alot of us haven finish, so wadever u haf, juz keep den others fake out. hmm, okayy.. u might as well sae earlier la so i wont haf to ask my dad to photostat. abit waste paper, waste my dad's time, waste my saliva to kinda beg my dad to photostat. and she juz said 'sorry wor'? den i keep saeing how fake out like the occupation thing.. u can fake so many out ah? since we nit to have different sectors de like business blah blah blah. now i noe why yh dun like her so much. LOL, but in the end yh helped me by suggesting we go out tgther to give, after i complained to her. well, i shall forgive yipi den. LOL, like u do sth wrong le den cum sae sry to me. abit gt use la. once it is hurt, it is hurt la. hmm, like shooting sl agn. shall nt sae, shall nt tink.

den today went for squash with vivien and shuffy. okayy, quite bad la. i hit like shit. hit until my palm very pain, tink coz starting to form blisters le. so when i wan go home tt time, vivien n shuffy cum sae me. okay la, i noe they mean well and i noe i m nt trying as hard as the others. i wan to go for the reselection if there is any but i noe i cant make it. so how? i oso duno la. and sighh, i feel quite hurt by their words. so in the end, i stayed for an hr more to train and i tried hitting with wadever i gt lo. so while i was hitting, i kept tinking abt the sl thing, abt wat vivien and shuffy said, abt alot of things, basically my probs ba. while training, shuffy came ask me if i feel inferior while training with them and i said yes. den she sae den u train alone la. hmm, i noe i m lousy la, but dunit to sae until so.. okay, i tink i tink too much le, maybe she juz wan to spur me on. maybe coz my mood wasnt really gd in the morn le.

hm, why is my mood nt so gd in the morn den? agn, is abt sl. haha, he actually dao my msg when i alrdy told him i forgive him and i asked him abt the maths va thing. is like i forgive u le, wat u wan!! is like u sliced my heart up into duno how many pieces le yet i still forgave u. hmm, now it seems to be my fault tt he fell into the emo mood frm wat yh told me yest. wat is this la, i m like hurting pple ard me.

so yes, after squash, called my bro. den i realised tt they went out. out w/o me. LOL, den my mum sae who ask me dun call earlier. how wld i noe u all are going out! nobody even tell me la. okay lo, my fault agn. so i m like alone at home now.

juz leave me alone, i dun wan probs. and yes, tonite having maths va discussion? abit sian diao you mei you.


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