bottled feelings

Friday, May 23, 2008

i realised i regretted alot of things. if only time cld turn back. perhaps i wld haf.. sigh. wat was i tinking tt time? why didnt i juz agree.

and today. wat a terrible day. i actually cried in front of the class. nt really cry but yes there were tears. and i noe everyone noticed it. why issit so damn hard to bring the class tgther. as in i tried but it juz cldnt work. and singing a bdae song issit tt difficult. i m nt even expecting a lot. it's juz opening ur freaking mouth. and yea, sl and yh whole day only noe how to complain abt the class but do they even realise tt the freaking problem lies with them. okay abt today. yes i bought brownies for the whole class. they complain tt they always nv get to eat, so yes i bought it. all the way frm raffles. and i hafta take bus to sch. i dun enjoy the luxury of sitting in my dad's car in the morn. and wat's their prob, buy for them and they like so po po ma ma, celebrate one bdae always must take yrs liddat. u noe it really hurts me so much simply by showing such attitudes. and when u compare other classes and my own class, my class really shows no sense of spirit. as in, i spent time buying the stuffs, doing the stuffs and u all juz dun appreciate it. since u all dun, why even bother sabo-ing me as the welfare rep. and the more i tink the more pissed i m la. sumtimes i wonder why m i the only person doing all the things. pple like zanyu, why is he slacking when he is supposed to be welfare rep too. and ya, why me alone. other classes haf their frens helping them. and to tink i m so stupid to stay up late nite juz to do things. I M SUCH A BIG FOOL. but forget it, this isnt the first time i broke down in sch. the fact tt why jz is gg closer to yh and sl oso hurts me. nt tt i m jealous, is juz tt she is neglecting me n ivy. it's like 6 yrs of frenship isnt better than the 1 yr relationship tt she haf with yh and sl. gosh, this class is separating. and i shallnt care. since everyone seems fine with it, den okay. tt's it.

blow it/
let it out___4:31 PM

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